Not Much To Say+Words for Thought

Well today I'm exactly 30 weeks and 6 days pregnant!

Hard to believe Im made it this long and can still smile. With all these pains and aches its hard to not stab someone with a fork when im eating... I know you laugh now- but for real. Dont sit by a mad pregnant woman eating. D-A-N-G-E-R-O-U-S.



I know it's been a while since I've actually blogger'ed! But for a Preggie- Im doing the best I can.

So September 4th is my next appointment. I get to be told that Im "32.4 weeks pregnant"... No Way! Im Pregnant??? lol



Im hoping to get another Ultra sound. It'd be nice.

Anyway.



So Im closing with this.



"If you love something so much- that'd you'd literally died if it left...how come when my internet goes out- Im still breathing"

♥The♥Big♥Woman♥Revolution♥

So today, My husband and I were laying in bed talking, and Tyra Banks Show came on. So I started watching. I was remembering when she had the "So What..!" campaign going on. And began to get mad. This beautiful,thin, rich, black woman has no right to preach to woman with self-esteem issues. WHY? Well first off- she has no reason to consider herself fat. She's not even close to big. (Tall, sure. Fat, no.) I remember seeing this woman today saying how she "hid food in a bedroom dresser" without her slender husband knowing. This woman was a big lady. But she definitely wasnt HUGE. Im so sick of seeing slender people-who have NO IDEA what it's like to be a bigger woman in this society-preaching about how we should feel good about ourselves.

"Honey, you take a walk around the world in a fat suit for one day then tell me how aweful it feels, but guess what? You can take it off!" -Ashley Marie

People consider that- since this person is obese (I hate that word), then she/he must eat a shit load! And when we go into a store for a candy bar-we get the eyes of the skinny demons. Hell you dont know my story, you dont know my condition...back off and let me eat my milky way!

Now Tuesday night-while I should have been blogging- I was watching "How to Look Good Naked." I LOVED IT! But Why? A skinny GAY guy was talking about how we are not perfect but thats okay. But why did I flip out when Tyra did it. Maybe because she was a role model for a walking hungry stick.

"I am going to be a mother-so in no way, whatsoever ;do I want to be a stick that looks hungry-walking down a runway"- Ashley Marie.

I just think its great when I see a big beautiful plump woman walking around confident. Now Im not saying I hate skinny people. I hate people in general. (thats a joke.) I just hate when I see people being a hypocrite. Saying one thing-but then promoting another...

Its like me seeing two dogs on the side of the road-taking in the gorgeous stray dog- then by passing the ugly one... its just wrong. Morally. Big woman CAN be sexy. Some woman are so afraid of the human eye that they hide every detaled part about there body. I, for one; LOVE my curves. And, Im sure my husband does to. But if ever a day came- that he told me to lose weight- I think I'd laugh, then pack his shit for him, and send him sailing. :) After breaking any valuable thing he has of course. :P

Weight isn't something people should be judged by. It's something the media has brainwashed basically. Thin is in. (sickly thin)... and if your over a size 6- well your just shit out of luck...

I say double numbers are better than no numbers at all! I myself am a 11/12. I use to be a size 18! Im pregnant now-7 months- and I use a hair bow to keep my pants on me....

LOL

All Im saying is woman.

BE PROUD OF WHO YOU ARE.

Be proud of that nice t-shirt that makes you feel sexy. Those highheels that make your legs look longer and that gorgeous guy who always waves hello to you when you leave your house. Be proud.

Cause girl, you got it goin' on!!!!!

Ashley Marie =D

♥For those who asked♥

Someone recently emailed me.

Asking about who I am and what I stand for.

Well I actually had to sit back and think.

Who I am?

• I'm Ashley Marie.



• I'm eight-teen.



• I'm married to a great guy.



• I'm a pregnant teen.



• I'm proud to say I'll be a mother in 2 more months.



• I'm a HUGE Alabama Football fan.



• I love Paul Bear Bryants quote : I aint never been nothing but a winner.



• I live in NorthEast Alabama.



• I love my family to death(Even though there are a few nuts in the candy dish.).



• I am into astrology, history, english, & life lessons.



• I love reading about peoples lives & what they think about certain subjects.



• I hate: being bored, cheerios without sugar, war, gas prices(horse & carriage anyone?), being told I dont know about life.



• Im more grown up than you probably think.

What DO I stand for? This is what came to my mind.

I stand for:

• Myself- Ashley Marie.



• My Husband- Joshua Lee.



• My Unborn Child- Addison McGahey.



• I stand for the girl who had to sit down and tell her parents she was pregnant-then CHOSE on her OWN not to abort her child.



• I stand for the people who actually take time out of there day to say "hey bud" to their pets who have to stay out in the blistering heat.



• I stand for the women at the grocery store who has to go around picking the things up that you couldn't walk over and put back in the right isle, just because "you didnt want it".



• I stand for that old fragile man in the wheelchair that sits in the same spot everyday waiting for a change.



• I stand for that little boy who gets made fun of for his freckles.



• I stand for every AMAZING girl who was cheated on by a Son of A Bitch.(and still went back)



• I stand for every mom who's felt a loss of a child.(then the joy of trying again)



• I stand for anyone who has been told to lose weight.



• I stand for anyone who is afraid to be unique.



• I stand for a burning hot state that seems to never get cooler!!! (ALABAMA



• I stand for anyone who likes to live life as it comes.(and doesnt need to be considered cool)

♥Imperfect Menv♥versus♥Ideal Perfect Women♥

I'm definitely no Pamela Anderson. My waist may not always be flat-considering I am pregnant with my first. Nor, will I run a mile everyday just to please people who consider me "fat". Guys expect most girls to try to follow the "Thin is In" motion. HA! They got another thing coming-right ladies? I'm sure half the people sitting on the computer reading my blog are not carrot munchers-nor do they care. I infact enjoy carrots with ranch dressing. Get real though if you think I'd choose a nice luscious salad -over a tender juicy steak smothered in Heinz-57! I think not.

So men are set out to find that "perfect woman". Nice hair, ageless face, firm buttox, perky Dolly Parton breast, nice plump Angelina Jolie lips, and legs that go on forever....sure. In your dreams men. I'm laughing in my mind so hard right now. Guys-if your reading this-there is NO PERFECT WOMAN. Everything sags over time. Not everything will remain as firm and perky as it was 15 years ago. Unless you look like that woman on television who uses BoTox daily- and she looks like a damn alien! No one is going to stay the same height as they age-nor will they stay the same weight.

Im a happy-average sized girl. Confidence is my key. But todays guys seem to have "I want a blonde-haired,blue-eyed skinny girl." compacted into their DNA. Dont you think? When a guy finally realizes he is in love, whether the girl be a respectable-300 lbs or a respectable-89lbs; then he'll truly not care about the looks, right? Wrong. Haven't you seen those movies of men in their 50's dating 30 year old women behind there wives back. Sickening to me. But I think if i was staying with a man faithfully till the day I died. He better hope Im dead before I find out "he was tired of seeing my wrinkled ass when I got up in the morning"-because I'd literally kill him-and the girl too...poison his damn denture paste-by god.

Men think women should be this picture they see off of television...I don't think any guy has seen real boobs before! Since all this plastic surgery is being deemed as "the best thing ever". BAH! I like how I look. Anyway thats all I'll say about that. The only "perfect" is what a woman see's in a mirror. You're own natural self. Free of the male vision of the "Ideal Perfect Woman" . I know I love my mirror-how 'bout you?

♥Teenage Pregnancy vs Old Lady Eyes♥

Have you noticed more and more people are blaming the media for their own problems? Shocking right? No! Once a "teen celeb" such as, Jamie Lynn Spears has a baby. It seems everyone is noticing the "rise" of teen pregnancy even though it has been here all along.

Well have I got some news for you. Teen pregnancy has been around since sex was thought of. I mean imagine Mrs. Cleaver walking in on her son Wally, while he is with his "girl". Un-speakable, yes? Well the fact is "way back when" during mid-evil times even. Pregancy among the young unmarried was shunned. They'd either exile you from there little "perfect" community or try to get a young girl married off to some old pervert. Imagine a poor 14 year old engaging in sexual incounters with a 50+ year old man just because her parents say he is a "proper suiter" and "will make a fine husband". BAH!

It's true that teens now are less hidden than usual about the Teenage Pregnancy Horror. But is it really a horror at all now? Teenage mothers & fathers(cant forget the daddies) are becoming more common than ever, but only once the media give us that "bit of info" that some teen star is preggie. I mean I don't mind walking around with my belly poking out.

"OLD WOMEN STARE ALL YOU LIKE, and YOUNG GIRLS LAUGH IF YA WANNA."
-Ashley Marie.

People are trying to say that we pregnant teens are ruining our life. NOT TRUE. That we are messing up a perfect unborn babys adventure in life...no. The thing is we stuck by our action, and we are proving that we have the same damn maternal instincts that any old lady birthing does. I believe I've read somewhere that "Age doesnt define how good of a parent you are." and I believe that. I can be a great mother, just as any teen who is pregnant can too, and also just that same as any normal aged person who is about or thinking about birthing a child.

Age is nothing compared to actions. Actions speak for everything: past, present, and future. Do you really want to look back on your PAST and see that you made a mistake and aborted a child, then at that moment in the PRESENT remember how it felt, how much you cried, and how sad that you were actually relieved, and how bad it is affecting your FUTURE...

My past, present, and future is going to contain my daughter. From the conception, to the day she gets her first tooth, says her first word, rides her first bike, meets her first little brother, gets her first doggy, breaks up with that boy for cheating, heads off to prom, graduates, fights with me, and then starts this process all over.

Children are everything- no matter how old you began to reproduce. Whether you've been trying to concieve for 5 years- having a baby on the first go.

It's a life changer...and it's worth every dirty look I get from strangers.

Enough said.

Thanks

=]
Ashley Marie.

♥Men♥Vs♥Women♥

Well,

As you know women in this world have been perceived as "cold hearted bitch", "nasty slut", "piece-of-ass", "homewrecker", "slave in the kitchen", "man hater", "baby maker", or even plain out "lesbian" for how we act on a day to day basis. Men have continued to put us women in a catergory. Whether it be very charming or down right rude. How did this come to be?

So you hear your guy friends say "Oh, I met _____ at the club last night. She was a great screw!" and they are applauded and given damn flowers for their actions, but when they have heared a girl is sleeping with anyone it's automatically "sluts-vegas" for her. Now I'm not saying having multiple partners in a short period of time is good. I just do not see how men can get awarded for this and women then become degraded.

I'm sitting here thinking that this action is a "Macho-Right-of-Passage". A guy must tell a friend a story of having sex with one girl so the other guy will agree that "yes, you are the man".

There are plenty of things facing this Men versus Women deal, that I want to talk about. Join me in my quest to determine "why" this happens...

=] Thanks

-Ashley Marie-